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#WorldSuicidePreventionDay #suicideprevention #blithe #sept10 #staystrong

#WorldSuicidePreventionDay #suicideprevention #blithe #sept10 #staystrong

I wrote this song as regarding to the way I felt when my ex broke up with me, to the way I feel and think now, just over a year later.

When she went, this was pretty much exactly how I felt what I wrote in this song, I found it just so hard to accept that she broke up with me, especially when she showed no signs of that anything was up even the day beforehand.

The second part is how I think now, how I think more than ever, if someone wants to go, even though it’s hard letting go, let them go as needing is far different than loving. 
This is a song showing that even though I felt exactly like that in the moment, I have carried on and am stronger than ever and am doing alright on my own. I do find it hard when I’m loving someone I can’t be with but I’m just concentrating my mind on things I like and enjoy, and other people who show they care.

If I can do it get through it and I still think like that that there’s someone for me and that love lasts forever, we all can do it. It is challenging yes but if we truly try then we will get through it and become stronger than ever because of it.

Forgive those that hurt you, we all break hearts, meaning it or not, we all do, we all have emotions, we just have to accept the changes God creates in our lives as after all what is love? It’s not just about a boy and girl falling in love and then living happily ever after the end, it’s about caring, respecting others, appreciating others. It’s about realising that love is all around us in everything we see even when there’s pain and violence. Just look past it and be glad that you’re a part of this life.

I wrote this song as regarding to the way I felt when my ex broke up with me, to the way I feel and think now, just over a year later.

When she went, this was pretty much exactly how I felt what I wrote in this song, I found it just so hard to accept that she broke up with me, especially when she showed no signs of that anything was up even the day beforehand.

The second part is how I think now, how I think more than ever, if someone wants to go, even though it’s hard letting go, let them go as needing is far different than loving.
This is a song showing that even though I felt exactly like that in the moment, I have carried on and am stronger than ever and am doing alright on my own. I do find it hard when I’m loving someone I can’t be with but I’m just concentrating my mind on things I like and enjoy, and other people who show they care.

If I can do it get through it and I still think like that that there’s someone for me and that love lasts forever, we all can do it. It is challenging yes but if we truly try then we will get through it and become stronger than ever because of it.

Forgive those that hurt you, we all break hearts, meaning it or not, we all do, we all have emotions, we just have to accept the changes God creates in our lives as after all what is love? It’s not just about a boy and girl falling in love and then living happily ever after the end, it’s about caring, respecting others, appreciating others. It’s about realising that love is all around us in everything we see even when there’s pain and violence. Just look past it and be glad that you’re a part of this life.

I wrote this song because I’ve met so many people that are homeless and so many of them have just really touched my heart how much kindness they hold in their soul.

Although this song is written referencing a lot about homeless people, it’s not just about homeless, it’s about anyone who has struggles and is in need. Look past people’s ugly living states, look to their heart, you will be surprised what you find in people, people that you may least expect.

Do not bring other people down below you because some day you will look up you might just need their help, so don’t frown upon their cries for help.

I wrote this song because I’ve met so many people that are homeless and so many of them have just really touched my heart how much kindness they hold in their soul.

Although this song is written referencing a lot about homeless people, it’s not just about homeless, it’s about anyone who has struggles and is in need. Look past people’s ugly living states, look to their heart, you will be surprised what you find in people, people that you may least expect.

Do not bring other people down below you because some day you will look up you might just need their help, so don’t frown upon their cries for help.

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you must reblog the Tumblr national anthem

everytime its on your dash

MUST. REBLOG.

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lopezgirl13:

You better learn bitch!!

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Her neck is gonna hurt like hell in that position doe.

He put her head like that so in case she throws up she won’t drown in her own puke, every important

At first I was going to be super pissed but then….

DID HE JUST SIT THERE WAITING FOR HER TO FALL ASLEEP?

Yes. Why is that so surprising? Its what any man should do. Any real man anyway.

Beautiful this is

(via unicorn-universe-galaxy)

So much nonsense has happened the past number of months, so much unneeded drama being created which I’m absolutely sick and tired of.
Thursday I got threatened yet again by another one of my BFF’s love lifes. I’m glad that God made me bump into someone I know from college beforehand so I was able to explain to him
and so he protected me.
.
How close to the edge being threatened yet again, when I thought it was all finished, made me feel. But when I were talking to @annapanda101 talking about what I want to, or should I say WILL, do in the near future, I said .
“Even though life is so full of $***, so full of people creating non stop drama, you make the decision. To either stay their sulking about the past and present, or get up, suck life up and work towards your dream. some seem like they think I will not do it but I’ll just prove those people wrong. I will do it. That’s exactly what you should be like in life and yea I don’t always see it in my darkest of times but I do not lose hope.”
.
Reading this again made me come up with this poem/song. It’s just not worth letting life ruin you. Just suck it up, deal with it, do what ever the heck you dream of doing and walk around this drama. After all, you either invite drama or you create drama. It’s up to you to close the door to drama and just carry on sucking up life one day at a time.
.
It certainly is far from easy, living life is no straightforward task, but it certainly is worth it and at the end of it you’ll be glad you did carry on.
.
Stay strong. #Blithe

So much nonsense has happened the past number of months, so much unneeded drama being created which I’m absolutely sick and tired of.
Thursday I got threatened yet again by another one of my BFF’s love lifes. I’m glad that God made me bump into someone I know from college beforehand so I was able to explain to him
and so he protected me.
.
How close to the edge being threatened yet again, when I thought it was all finished, made me feel. But when I were talking to @annapanda101 talking about what I want to, or should I say WILL, do in the near future, I said .
“Even though life is so full of $***, so full of people creating non stop drama, you make the decision. To either stay their sulking about the past and present, or get up, suck life up and work towards your dream. some seem like they think I will not do it but I’ll just prove those people wrong. I will do it. That’s exactly what you should be like in life and yea I don’t always see it in my darkest of times but I do not lose hope.”
.
Reading this again made me come up with this poem/song. It’s just not worth letting life ruin you. Just suck it up, deal with it, do what ever the heck you dream of doing and walk around this drama. After all, you either invite drama or you create drama. It’s up to you to close the door to drama and just carry on sucking up life one day at a time.
.
It certainly is far from easy, living life is no straightforward task, but it certainly is worth it and at the end of it you’ll be glad you did carry on.
.
Stay strong. #Blithe

Call me crazy
Call me a fool
But I dare to be different
Not be like you
Think what you want
Judge me as you please
But stay out my way
You smelly piece of cheese

People think I am crazy, think I am insane, they think I make a fool out of myself by what I do. Yea maybe I do, but do I care? No because this is my life, so I will live it to the max, I’ll be young wild and free. There’s just one chance at this life, so why do I want to worry what others think about me?

This is my life, I’m the only boss of it and so I will live it how I please.
I will not apologise for being different, so if you want me to give an apology, you know where the door is, how about you try it too, dare to be different?

Live your life for your own satisfaction, not for others satisfaction. Set and achieve your own goals, live your dreams, and live each day like it’s your last because yea, one day it most certainly will be your last here on earth. That could be today, it could be tomorrow, it could be 80 years from now, who knows?

Like I said, you only have one chance at this life, so you have a decision to make. Will you choose to carry on and make the most out of your life and then be rewarded when your time has come to move on? Or do you want to put your life in the bin and put to waste your only chance at accomplishing your dreams?

I certainly know which I will choose, to carry on and make the most out of my life and dare to be different without any worries about what others think of me.
I certainly didn’t worry what others thought of me when I decided to dance in the Apple Store that’s for sure. The video is on my YouTube if you want to watch it which you can get to by clicking the link below
http://is.gd/pkVhAp

Call me crazy
Call me a fool
But I dare to be different
Not be like you
Think what you want
Judge me as you please
But stay out my way
You smelly piece of cheese

People think I am crazy, think I am insane, they think I make a fool out of myself by what I do. Yea maybe I do, but do I care? No because this is my life, so I will live it to the max, I’ll be young wild and free. There’s just one chance at this life, so why do I want to worry what others think about me?

This is my life, I’m the only boss of it and so I will live it how I please.
I will not apologise for being different, so if you want me to give an apology, you know where the door is, how about you try it too, dare to be different?

Live your life for your own satisfaction, not for others satisfaction. Set and achieve your own goals, live your dreams, and live each day like it’s your last because yea, one day it most certainly will be your last here on earth. That could be today, it could be tomorrow, it could be 80 years from now, who knows?

Like I said, you only have one chance at this life, so you have a decision to make. Will you choose to carry on and make the most out of your life and then be rewarded when your time has come to move on? Or do you want to put your life in the bin and put to waste your only chance at accomplishing your dreams?

I certainly know which I will choose, to carry on and make the most out of my life and dare to be different without any worries about what others think of me.
I certainly didn’t worry what others thought of me when I decided to dance in the Apple Store that’s for sure. The video is on my YouTube if you want to watch it which you can get to by clicking the link below
http://is.gd/pkVhAp

Yea I like drawing on myself :P

Yea I like drawing on myself :P

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Life is tough
We’ve had enough
Scaring our wrists, we know it’s wrong but we don’t give a stuff

I am cold, I am weak
Why I am like this I cannot speak
I am a lie, I’m ready to die, for all I can do is have a cry

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Where have all my loved ones gone?
My best friend is gone, what did I do wrong?
Now her boyfriend has a gun, ready to take a bullseye in one
Tell me why this is happening to me
I was so blinded, this I could not see

Life is a game, we never win
Should I just throw everything away in the bin?

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

We’ll be ok
It gets better they say
Brighter will be our future days
They know not our pain, why we want to drop out of an aeroplane
Trues turn into fakes
Makes us want to drown in lakes

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Life is a blessing so why does it need to be so stressing?
We try impressing, but we forget about progressing
Put the darkness to the side
Why do you need to hide?
Today can be a new beginning
Let’s stop with the bloody sinning

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Life is tough
We’ve had enough
Scaring our wrists, we know it’s wrong but we don’t give a stuff

I am cold, I am weak
Why I am like this I cannot speak
I am a lie, I’m ready to die, for all I can do is have a cry

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Where have all my loved ones gone?
My best friend is gone, what did I do wrong?
Now her boyfriend has a gun, ready to take a bullseye in one
Tell me why this is happening to me
I was so blinded, this I could not see

Life is a game, we never win
Should I just throw everything away in the bin?

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

We’ll be ok
It gets better they say
Brighter will be our future days
They know not our pain, why we want to drop out of an aeroplane
Trues turn into fakes
Makes us want to drown in lakes

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Life is a blessing so why does it need to be so stressing?
We try impressing, but we forget about progressing
Put the darkness to the side
Why do you need to hide?
Today can be a new beginning
Let’s stop with the bloody sinning

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

We all have addictions

If you say you haven’t ever had an addiction, you know that it ain’t true. In life, we all will go through an addiction in some form or factor. You may not realise it, but I bet every single person reading this has an addiction or two.

Whether it is being addicted to self-harm, or lusting, getting drunk, taking drugs, having a cigarette or simply drinking tea/coffee, or having chocolate. That’s an addiction. Anything can become an addiction, and we often don’t realise it until we try to stop.

I can speak a lot for self harming and lusting. Those are my two addictions.
Lusting, I accidentally done it once when I turned 13 and I’ve been trying really ever since 16 to stop. I didn’t realise that was an addiction.
I just get so mad at myself for it.
Then I once self harmed back in June of this year…
Yea I promised myself and my BFFs that I’d never do it again. But the blade weren’t going to make it that easy on me.

It started constantly giving me urges upon urges to use it again until I couldn’t tackle it anymore. I managed to then somehow go on until August without touching that blade again.
Then at around the middle of August I started doing it again because I couldn’t tackle the urges.
September and October was on and off. November I’ve been doing it almost every night.

Last week I got on really good until just now.
When I’m doing it, it just fricken feels so good!! I like the feeling of pain. Because the feeling you get when in pain, that’s there to help with the damage to the body (well that’s what my understanding is). Pain, depending what it is, just does make you feel more relaxed afterwards.
Pain on your wrists, why does it simply have to be so wonderful and so addicting?

It’s simply just so crazy. I’ve had a really good week last week. I did rather a lot for Anti-Bullying Week, and doing all of this also within college, I didn’t get the urges at all.
But then just now I got in bed, and picked that blade up before even knowing it.

I am not depressed anymore. I am not suicidal anymore. I am happy! I have friends I can go to (although I feel scared to), and I’m constantly getting to know more and more people (in person).
So why am I self harming?

I’m certain that people that have other addictions who are trying to stop often think all this. Why are we doing it and find it so hard to stop? Even though we are happy and have a good life?

It is a really really hard battle. Life is without battles. No matter how hard we try, no matter how happy we are, there’s always something that makes our journey here on earth so much tougher.
But do not let these things prevent you from continuing to try your best in life. Do not let these succeed on making you give up. We must push along, push ourselves through these obstacles. As we move along and get through these things that stand in our way, we start to see how more and more rewarding life becomes.

My faith in God and Jesus gets stronger and stronger each and every day.
I prayed to God asking for him to not let those pills kill my friend and to forgive her. He done just that. I’m praying that my friend Steph’s Grandad recovers from his stroke (I’m keeping him in my prayers). Then I was talking to my friend Razv about that I live by the verse: “And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.” Matthew 22:39 (KJV). I also mentioned about “love even your enemies because hate won’t kill hate, only love will do that”, and I opened up my bible app to find out that the verse of today (or yesterday should I say… It is currently 2am on Sunday 24th November at the time of writing this) was “But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you.” Luke 6:27-28 (KJV).

I just know God and Jesus aren’t leaving my side. I know I am not alone, even when I feel alone. I just know that as long as I forever put my faith in them, I will say goodbye to my addictions.
It may take days, it may take weeks, it may take months or it could take years. Who knows? It doesn’t happen over night. What matters is that I am and will forever try. I ain’t giving up.

I hope that this helps anyone going through an addiction of any kind. It may take me a lot of courage to post this, and if I do I do not know who is going to see this, how many people in college, in my family etc. But I have written this anyway because Steph, she on Friday gave me something to read that she wrote which was really personal to her that I can tell took a lot of courage to write.
When I eventually put that blade down, I suddenly thought of what she wrote and it made me decide to write this (for her mainly but still for you all).

I feel that she let all of her inside hidden feelings out to me, so I want to do the same. I’ve not known her for long and Friday was the first time I really had some quality time with her, but then strangers, they can become the best of friends we’ve ever had just within one look in each other’s eyes.
Steph opened herself up to me, so I feel that the least I can do is open myself up to her, which may mean a lot to her, I dunno but it most certainly meant a lot to me her running down on Wednesday to me in college saying “I need a hug” (then telling me about her grandad), and it meant a lot to me her opening herself up to me. I just simply want to hug her so much more than I did for that. It means more than anyone can ever know when someone who you’ve not known for long and they’ve not known you for long has enough trust in you to share with you  things so personal.

Whether she told me she was suicidal, or she was a self harmer too, or whatever, it still would mean such a lot because it does simply take a lot of courage to say to someone about all that, especially with someone in person.

I know this is a tremendously tremendously long blog post but every single word just so needed to get out.
Anyone who has read all of this, it means such a lot and again I really hope me opening myself up so much like this helps you.

Stay strong to everyone! Together we can all beat addiction!!
May God bless you all!!

We all have addictions

If you say you haven’t ever had an addiction, you know that it ain’t true. In life, we all will go through an addiction in some form or factor. You may not realise it, but I bet every single person reading this has an addiction or two.

Whether it is being addicted to self-harm, or lusting, getting drunk, taking drugs, having a cigarette or simply drinking tea/coffee, or having chocolate. That’s an addiction. Anything can become an addiction, and we often don’t realise it until we try to stop.

I can speak a lot for self harming and lusting. Those are my two addictions.
Lusting, I accidentally done it once when I turned 13 and I’ve been trying really ever since 16 to stop. I didn’t realise that was an addiction.
I just get so mad at myself for it.
Then I once self harmed back in June of this year…
Yea I promised myself and my BFFs that I’d never do it again. But the blade weren’t going to make it that easy on me.

It started constantly giving me urges upon urges to use it again until I couldn’t tackle it anymore. I managed to then somehow go on until August without touching that blade again.
Then at around the middle of August I started doing it again because I couldn’t tackle the urges.
September and October was on and off. November I’ve been doing it almost every night.

Last week I got on really good until just now.
When I’m doing it, it just fricken feels so good!! I like the feeling of pain. Because the feeling you get when in pain, that’s there to help with the damage to the body (well that’s what my understanding is). Pain, depending what it is, just does make you feel more relaxed afterwards.
Pain on your wrists, why does it simply have to be so wonderful and so addicting?

It’s simply just so crazy. I’ve had a really good week last week. I did rather a lot for Anti-Bullying Week, and doing all of this also within college, I didn’t get the urges at all.
But then just now I got in bed, and picked that blade up before even knowing it.

I am not depressed anymore. I am not suicidal anymore. I am happy! I have friends I can go to (although I feel scared to), and I’m constantly getting to know more and more people (in person).
So why am I self harming?

I’m certain that people that have other addictions who are trying to stop often think all this. Why are we doing it and find it so hard to stop? Even though we are happy and have a good life?

It is a really really hard battle. Life is without battles. No matter how hard we try, no matter how happy we are, there’s always something that makes our journey here on earth so much tougher.
But do not let these things prevent you from continuing to try your best in life. Do not let these succeed on making you give up. We must push along, push ourselves through these obstacles. As we move along and get through these things that stand in our way, we start to see how more and more rewarding life becomes.

My faith in God and Jesus gets stronger and stronger each and every day.
I prayed to God asking for him to not let those pills kill my friend and to forgive her. He done just that. I’m praying that my friend Steph’s Grandad recovers from his stroke (I’m keeping him in my prayers). Then I was talking to my friend Razv about that I live by the verse: “And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.” Matthew 22:39 (KJV). I also mentioned about “love even your enemies because hate won’t kill hate, only love will do that”, and I opened up my bible app to find out that the verse of today (or yesterday should I say… It is currently 2am on Sunday 24th November at the time of writing this) was “But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you.” Luke 6:27-28 (KJV).

I just know God and Jesus aren’t leaving my side. I know I am not alone, even when I feel alone. I just know that as long as I forever put my faith in them, I will say goodbye to my addictions.
It may take days, it may take weeks, it may take months or it could take years. Who knows? It doesn’t happen over night. What matters is that I am and will forever try. I ain’t giving up.

I hope that this helps anyone going through an addiction of any kind. It may take me a lot of courage to post this, and if I do I do not know who is going to see this, how many people in college, in my family etc. But I have written this anyway because Steph, she on Friday gave me something to read that she wrote which was really personal to her that I can tell took a lot of courage to write.
When I eventually put that blade down, I suddenly thought of what she wrote and it made me decide to write this (for her mainly but still for you all).

I feel that she let all of her inside hidden feelings out to me, so I want to do the same. I’ve not known her for long and Friday was the first time I really had some quality time with her, but then strangers, they can become the best of friends we’ve ever had just within one look in each other’s eyes.
Steph opened herself up to me, so I feel that the least I can do is open myself up to her, which may mean a lot to her, I dunno but it most certainly meant a lot to me her running down on Wednesday to me in college saying “I need a hug” (then telling me about her grandad), and it meant a lot to me her opening herself up to me. I just simply want to hug her so much more than I did for that. It means more than anyone can ever know when someone who you’ve not known for long and they’ve not known you for long has enough trust in you to share with you things so personal.

Whether she told me she was suicidal, or she was a self harmer too, or whatever, it still would mean such a lot because it does simply take a lot of courage to say to someone about all that, especially with someone in person.

I know this is a tremendously tremendously long blog post but every single word just so needed to get out.
Anyone who has read all of this, it means such a lot and again I really hope me opening myself up so much like this helps you.

Stay strong to everyone! Together we can all beat addiction!!
May God bless you all!!