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Call me crazy
Call me a fool
But I dare to be different
Not be like you
Think what you want
Judge me as you please
But stay out my way
You smelly piece of cheese

People think I am crazy, think I am insane, they think I make a fool out of myself by what I do. Yea maybe I do, but do I care? No because this is my life, so I will live it to the max, I’ll be young wild and free. There’s just one chance at this life, so why do I want to worry what others think about me?

This is my life, I’m the only boss of it and so I will live it how I please.
I will not apologise for being different, so if you want me to give an apology, you know where the door is, how about you try it too, dare to be different?

Live your life for your own satisfaction, not for others satisfaction. Set and achieve your own goals, live your dreams, and live each day like it’s your last because yea, one day it most certainly will be your last here on earth. That could be today, it could be tomorrow, it could be 80 years from now, who knows?

Like I said, you only have one chance at this life, so you have a decision to make. Will you choose to carry on and make the most out of your life and then be rewarded when your time has come to move on? Or do you want to put your life in the bin and put to waste your only chance at accomplishing your dreams?

I certainly know which I will choose, to carry on and make the most out of my life and dare to be different without any worries about what others think of me.
I certainly didn’t worry what others thought of me when I decided to dance in the Apple Store that’s for sure. The video is on my YouTube if you want to watch it which you can get to by clicking the link below
http://is.gd/pkVhAp

Call me crazy
Call me a fool
But I dare to be different
Not be like you
Think what you want
Judge me as you please
But stay out my way
You smelly piece of cheese

People think I am crazy, think I am insane, they think I make a fool out of myself by what I do. Yea maybe I do, but do I care? No because this is my life, so I will live it to the max, I’ll be young wild and free. There’s just one chance at this life, so why do I want to worry what others think about me?

This is my life, I’m the only boss of it and so I will live it how I please.
I will not apologise for being different, so if you want me to give an apology, you know where the door is, how about you try it too, dare to be different?

Live your life for your own satisfaction, not for others satisfaction. Set and achieve your own goals, live your dreams, and live each day like it’s your last because yea, one day it most certainly will be your last here on earth. That could be today, it could be tomorrow, it could be 80 years from now, who knows?

Like I said, you only have one chance at this life, so you have a decision to make. Will you choose to carry on and make the most out of your life and then be rewarded when your time has come to move on? Or do you want to put your life in the bin and put to waste your only chance at accomplishing your dreams?

I certainly know which I will choose, to carry on and make the most out of my life and dare to be different without any worries about what others think of me.
I certainly didn’t worry what others thought of me when I decided to dance in the Apple Store that’s for sure. The video is on my YouTube if you want to watch it which you can get to by clicking the link below
http://is.gd/pkVhAp

Yea I like drawing on myself :P

Yea I like drawing on myself :P

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Life is tough
We’ve had enough
Scaring our wrists, we know it’s wrong but we don’t give a stuff

I am cold, I am weak
Why I am like this I cannot speak
I am a lie, I’m ready to die, for all I can do is have a cry

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Where have all my loved ones gone?
My best friend is gone, what did I do wrong?
Now her boyfriend has a gun, ready to take a bullseye in one
Tell me why this is happening to me
I was so blinded, this I could not see

Life is a game, we never win
Should I just throw everything away in the bin?

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

We’ll be ok
It gets better they say
Brighter will be our future days
They know not our pain, why we want to drop out of an aeroplane
Trues turn into fakes
Makes us want to drown in lakes

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Life is a blessing so why does it need to be so stressing?
We try impressing, but we forget about progressing
Put the darkness to the side
Why do you need to hide?
Today can be a new beginning
Let’s stop with the bloody sinning

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Life is tough
We’ve had enough
Scaring our wrists, we know it’s wrong but we don’t give a stuff

I am cold, I am weak
Why I am like this I cannot speak
I am a lie, I’m ready to die, for all I can do is have a cry

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Where have all my loved ones gone?
My best friend is gone, what did I do wrong?
Now her boyfriend has a gun, ready to take a bullseye in one
Tell me why this is happening to me
I was so blinded, this I could not see

Life is a game, we never win
Should I just throw everything away in the bin?

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

We’ll be ok
It gets better they say
Brighter will be our future days
They know not our pain, why we want to drop out of an aeroplane
Trues turn into fakes
Makes us want to drown in lakes

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

Life is a blessing so why does it need to be so stressing?
We try impressing, but we forget about progressing
Put the darkness to the side
Why do you need to hide?
Today can be a new beginning
Let’s stop with the bloody sinning

Blade, put it away
You ain’t got time to play with it today
Knife, put it away
Is life really that bad to stab yourself today?
Pills, throw them away
Is it worth the risk not living another day

We all have addictions

If you say you haven’t ever had an addiction, you know that it ain’t true. In life, we all will go through an addiction in some form or factor. You may not realise it, but I bet every single person reading this has an addiction or two.

Whether it is being addicted to self-harm, or lusting, getting drunk, taking drugs, having a cigarette or simply drinking tea/coffee, or having chocolate. That’s an addiction. Anything can become an addiction, and we often don’t realise it until we try to stop.

I can speak a lot for self harming and lusting. Those are my two addictions.
Lusting, I accidentally done it once when I turned 13 and I’ve been trying really ever since 16 to stop. I didn’t realise that was an addiction.
I just get so mad at myself for it.
Then I once self harmed back in June of this year…
Yea I promised myself and my BFFs that I’d never do it again. But the blade weren’t going to make it that easy on me.

It started constantly giving me urges upon urges to use it again until I couldn’t tackle it anymore. I managed to then somehow go on until August without touching that blade again.
Then at around the middle of August I started doing it again because I couldn’t tackle the urges.
September and October was on and off. November I’ve been doing it almost every night.

Last week I got on really good until just now.
When I’m doing it, it just fricken feels so good!! I like the feeling of pain. Because the feeling you get when in pain, that’s there to help with the damage to the body (well that’s what my understanding is). Pain, depending what it is, just does make you feel more relaxed afterwards.
Pain on your wrists, why does it simply have to be so wonderful and so addicting?

It’s simply just so crazy. I’ve had a really good week last week. I did rather a lot for Anti-Bullying Week, and doing all of this also within college, I didn’t get the urges at all.
But then just now I got in bed, and picked that blade up before even knowing it.

I am not depressed anymore. I am not suicidal anymore. I am happy! I have friends I can go to (although I feel scared to), and I’m constantly getting to know more and more people (in person).
So why am I self harming?

I’m certain that people that have other addictions who are trying to stop often think all this. Why are we doing it and find it so hard to stop? Even though we are happy and have a good life?

It is a really really hard battle. Life is without battles. No matter how hard we try, no matter how happy we are, there’s always something that makes our journey here on earth so much tougher.
But do not let these things prevent you from continuing to try your best in life. Do not let these succeed on making you give up. We must push along, push ourselves through these obstacles. As we move along and get through these things that stand in our way, we start to see how more and more rewarding life becomes.

My faith in God and Jesus gets stronger and stronger each and every day.
I prayed to God asking for him to not let those pills kill my friend and to forgive her. He done just that. I’m praying that my friend Steph’s Grandad recovers from his stroke (I’m keeping him in my prayers). Then I was talking to my friend Razv about that I live by the verse: “And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.” Matthew 22:39 (KJV). I also mentioned about “love even your enemies because hate won’t kill hate, only love will do that”, and I opened up my bible app to find out that the verse of today (or yesterday should I say… It is currently 2am on Sunday 24th November at the time of writing this) was “But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you.” Luke 6:27-28 (KJV).

I just know God and Jesus aren’t leaving my side. I know I am not alone, even when I feel alone. I just know that as long as I forever put my faith in them, I will say goodbye to my addictions.
It may take days, it may take weeks, it may take months or it could take years. Who knows? It doesn’t happen over night. What matters is that I am and will forever try. I ain’t giving up.

I hope that this helps anyone going through an addiction of any kind. It may take me a lot of courage to post this, and if I do I do not know who is going to see this, how many people in college, in my family etc. But I have written this anyway because Steph, she on Friday gave me something to read that she wrote which was really personal to her that I can tell took a lot of courage to write.
When I eventually put that blade down, I suddenly thought of what she wrote and it made me decide to write this (for her mainly but still for you all).

I feel that she let all of her inside hidden feelings out to me, so I want to do the same. I’ve not known her for long and Friday was the first time I really had some quality time with her, but then strangers, they can become the best of friends we’ve ever had just within one look in each other’s eyes.
Steph opened herself up to me, so I feel that the least I can do is open myself up to her, which may mean a lot to her, I dunno but it most certainly meant a lot to me her running down on Wednesday to me in college saying “I need a hug” (then telling me about her grandad), and it meant a lot to me her opening herself up to me. I just simply want to hug her so much more than I did for that. It means more than anyone can ever know when someone who you’ve not known for long and they’ve not known you for long has enough trust in you to share with you  things so personal.

Whether she told me she was suicidal, or she was a self harmer too, or whatever, it still would mean such a lot because it does simply take a lot of courage to say to someone about all that, especially with someone in person.

I know this is a tremendously tremendously long blog post but every single word just so needed to get out.
Anyone who has read all of this, it means such a lot and again I really hope me opening myself up so much like this helps you.

Stay strong to everyone! Together we can all beat addiction!!
May God bless you all!!

We all have addictions

If you say you haven’t ever had an addiction, you know that it ain’t true. In life, we all will go through an addiction in some form or factor. You may not realise it, but I bet every single person reading this has an addiction or two.

Whether it is being addicted to self-harm, or lusting, getting drunk, taking drugs, having a cigarette or simply drinking tea/coffee, or having chocolate. That’s an addiction. Anything can become an addiction, and we often don’t realise it until we try to stop.

I can speak a lot for self harming and lusting. Those are my two addictions.
Lusting, I accidentally done it once when I turned 13 and I’ve been trying really ever since 16 to stop. I didn’t realise that was an addiction.
I just get so mad at myself for it.
Then I once self harmed back in June of this year…
Yea I promised myself and my BFFs that I’d never do it again. But the blade weren’t going to make it that easy on me.

It started constantly giving me urges upon urges to use it again until I couldn’t tackle it anymore. I managed to then somehow go on until August without touching that blade again.
Then at around the middle of August I started doing it again because I couldn’t tackle the urges.
September and October was on and off. November I’ve been doing it almost every night.

Last week I got on really good until just now.
When I’m doing it, it just fricken feels so good!! I like the feeling of pain. Because the feeling you get when in pain, that’s there to help with the damage to the body (well that’s what my understanding is). Pain, depending what it is, just does make you feel more relaxed afterwards.
Pain on your wrists, why does it simply have to be so wonderful and so addicting?

It’s simply just so crazy. I’ve had a really good week last week. I did rather a lot for Anti-Bullying Week, and doing all of this also within college, I didn’t get the urges at all.
But then just now I got in bed, and picked that blade up before even knowing it.

I am not depressed anymore. I am not suicidal anymore. I am happy! I have friends I can go to (although I feel scared to), and I’m constantly getting to know more and more people (in person).
So why am I self harming?

I’m certain that people that have other addictions who are trying to stop often think all this. Why are we doing it and find it so hard to stop? Even though we are happy and have a good life?

It is a really really hard battle. Life is without battles. No matter how hard we try, no matter how happy we are, there’s always something that makes our journey here on earth so much tougher.
But do not let these things prevent you from continuing to try your best in life. Do not let these succeed on making you give up. We must push along, push ourselves through these obstacles. As we move along and get through these things that stand in our way, we start to see how more and more rewarding life becomes.

My faith in God and Jesus gets stronger and stronger each and every day.
I prayed to God asking for him to not let those pills kill my friend and to forgive her. He done just that. I’m praying that my friend Steph’s Grandad recovers from his stroke (I’m keeping him in my prayers). Then I was talking to my friend Razv about that I live by the verse: “And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.” Matthew 22:39 (KJV). I also mentioned about “love even your enemies because hate won’t kill hate, only love will do that”, and I opened up my bible app to find out that the verse of today (or yesterday should I say… It is currently 2am on Sunday 24th November at the time of writing this) was “But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you.” Luke 6:27-28 (KJV).

I just know God and Jesus aren’t leaving my side. I know I am not alone, even when I feel alone. I just know that as long as I forever put my faith in them, I will say goodbye to my addictions.
It may take days, it may take weeks, it may take months or it could take years. Who knows? It doesn’t happen over night. What matters is that I am and will forever try. I ain’t giving up.

I hope that this helps anyone going through an addiction of any kind. It may take me a lot of courage to post this, and if I do I do not know who is going to see this, how many people in college, in my family etc. But I have written this anyway because Steph, she on Friday gave me something to read that she wrote which was really personal to her that I can tell took a lot of courage to write.
When I eventually put that blade down, I suddenly thought of what she wrote and it made me decide to write this (for her mainly but still for you all).

I feel that she let all of her inside hidden feelings out to me, so I want to do the same. I’ve not known her for long and Friday was the first time I really had some quality time with her, but then strangers, they can become the best of friends we’ve ever had just within one look in each other’s eyes.
Steph opened herself up to me, so I feel that the least I can do is open myself up to her, which may mean a lot to her, I dunno but it most certainly meant a lot to me her running down on Wednesday to me in college saying “I need a hug” (then telling me about her grandad), and it meant a lot to me her opening herself up to me. I just simply want to hug her so much more than I did for that. It means more than anyone can ever know when someone who you’ve not known for long and they’ve not known you for long has enough trust in you to share with you things so personal.

Whether she told me she was suicidal, or she was a self harmer too, or whatever, it still would mean such a lot because it does simply take a lot of courage to say to someone about all that, especially with someone in person.

I know this is a tremendously tremendously long blog post but every single word just so needed to get out.
Anyone who has read all of this, it means such a lot and again I really hope me opening myself up so much like this helps you.

Stay strong to everyone! Together we can all beat addiction!!
May God bless you all!!

The show must go on

Life is tough, and it gets tougher every breath we take, but for every individual breath, life also gets better..
The more we try, the more we push along even in our darkest of times, the more rewarding life becomes.

No one is on this earth forever, but we do live forever!
We will all have tough times to get through. The more we go throughout life, we will lose ones we love dearly. Whether they fell out with you, or they passed away, it is really hard and can get harder ever single time.

But we cannot let these bad things bring us down, down to the point we lose hope, faith, courage, strength because the show must go on! Life must go on.
This is the circle of life. Everything comes and goes, it’s a simple fact. The one thing that doesn’t go though is love! Where it is true, it will stay and forever be.

When someone you love passes away, or moves away or whatever it may be, remember that distance never will separate you from those you love. They are right there with you.

Life simply goes on and we simply move on, but as long as those you love never leave your heart, you do not need to worry about saying good bye; only say goodnight.

I hate saying the words “good bye” or “bye”, because how I define “bye” is when someone leaves your heart. Therefore I usually say “cya”, because yes ok that is slang, but it feels a nicer thing to say because you are not saying “bye”, you are instead saying “I will see you soon” basically. It’s such a nicer thing to say, and if ever I’m told to say “good bye” rather than “cya” because it’s more formal, I will simply say this to them. Surely if they have a heart they’ll understand how I feel when I explain this.

But again like I said, don’t let darkness bring you down because the show simply must and will go on. Love it or hate it, it’s the fact of life and when you walk up those heavenly steps, you’ll be ever so thankful you lived your life here on earth to its fullest. It’ll be so rewarding I can promise you that!

The show must go on

Life is tough, and it gets tougher every breath we take, but for every individual breath, life also gets better..
The more we try, the more we push along even in our darkest of times, the more rewarding life becomes.

No one is on this earth forever, but we do live forever!
We will all have tough times to get through. The more we go throughout life, we will lose ones we love dearly. Whether they fell out with you, or they passed away, it is really hard and can get harder ever single time.

But we cannot let these bad things bring us down, down to the point we lose hope, faith, courage, strength because the show must go on! Life must go on.
This is the circle of life. Everything comes and goes, it’s a simple fact. The one thing that doesn’t go though is love! Where it is true, it will stay and forever be.

When someone you love passes away, or moves away or whatever it may be, remember that distance never will separate you from those you love. They are right there with you.

Life simply goes on and we simply move on, but as long as those you love never leave your heart, you do not need to worry about saying good bye; only say goodnight.

I hate saying the words “good bye” or “bye”, because how I define “bye” is when someone leaves your heart. Therefore I usually say “cya”, because yes ok that is slang, but it feels a nicer thing to say because you are not saying “bye”, you are instead saying “I will see you soon” basically. It’s such a nicer thing to say, and if ever I’m told to say “good bye” rather than “cya” because it’s more formal, I will simply say this to them. Surely if they have a heart they’ll understand how I feel when I explain this.

But again like I said, don’t let darkness bring you down because the show simply must and will go on. Love it or hate it, it’s the fact of life and when you walk up those heavenly steps, you’ll be ever so thankful you lived your life here on earth to its fullest. It’ll be so rewarding I can promise you that!

What I’m doing in college for #antibullyingweek #antibullying #stopbullying #spotitandstopit @beatbullying I’m the one in charge of this :D and it’s going to become a regular thing, not just anti-bullying week :D #beatbullying #bandtogether #bullying #blithe

What I’m doing in college for #antibullyingweek #antibullying #stopbullying #spotitandstopit @beatbullying I’m the one in charge of this :D and it’s going to become a regular thing, not just anti-bullying week :D #beatbullying #bandtogether #bullying #blithe

Dear Bully
.
Thank you very much for calling me ugly, now how about me calling your attitude ugly?
.
When you look in the mirror what do you see? A pretty face or an ugly heart? In my mirror I see a friendly face and a pretty heart.
.
How does pushing others down pull you up?
.
The only person you’re pushing down is yourSADself.
.
Only weak people feel the need to see others suffer
.
The only person you’re pushing
You may have self esteem issues, but do you need to make others have self esteem issues to feel you fit in? .
Bully me as much as you like, just don’t expect me to cry
.
Unless you know what it’s like to wake up in the middle of the night, don’t judge someone who self harms.
.
Causing suicide is what is cowardly, not committing suicide
.
When I ask you what right you have to bully, you just keep on bullying because you know you can’t get the better of those words don’t you?
.
I’d love to hear you quote to me where in the Human Rights Act it says that bullying is tolerable, so please, go ahead
.
At the end of the day, who is making a positive impact and feeling better about themselves for the difference they make?

Dear Bully
.
Thank you very much for calling me ugly, now how about me calling your attitude ugly?
.
When you look in the mirror what do you see? A pretty face or an ugly heart? In my mirror I see a friendly face and a pretty heart.
.
How does pushing others down pull you up?
.
The only person you’re pushing down is yourSADself.
.
Only weak people feel the need to see others suffer
.
The only person you’re pushing
You may have self esteem issues, but do you need to make others have self esteem issues to feel you fit in? .
Bully me as much as you like, just don’t expect me to cry
.
Unless you know what it’s like to wake up in the middle of the night, don’t judge someone who self harms.
.
Causing suicide is what is cowardly, not committing suicide
.
When I ask you what right you have to bully, you just keep on bullying because you know you can’t get the better of those words don’t you?
.
I’d love to hear you quote to me where in the Human Rights Act it says that bullying is tolerable, so please, go ahead
.
At the end of the day, who is making a positive impact and feeling better about themselves for the difference they make?

fearsvsdreams:

Huge thanks to the guys in Escape the Fate for taking time to share the Fears vs. Dreams! 

Never forget the power of praying.

Sometimes we are so used to the bad things in life we just lose sight all the things that show God’s existence,
I’m pretty sure I’m not the only religious person who’s at times questioned God’s existence.

Yea sometimes Satan can feel more real than God and Jesus at times.
So many bad things happen, but we need to put trust in that prayer works. Next time you are in tears, when life’s got the better of you, when you just aren’t able to fight your emotions, just put your hands to your heart and have a prayer. It could be a couple of words, it could be dozens. A prayer is a prayer. If it’s true what you say, that prayer will be effective. Trust me! It will!

Last night I just dropped what I was doing and everything to just pray for my friend, and I woke this morning to find that it was really effective the prayer, it worked.

When all strength is lost, when there is nothing else you can do, just pray, because when you’ve done all you can, you need to put it into God’s hands. Just put all your trust in him, and he will certainly show you the effect of your prayer.

Life is a blessing, and if you put your trust in God, he will show you that.

Never forget the power of praying.

Sometimes we are so used to the bad things in life we just lose sight all the things that show God’s existence,
I’m pretty sure I’m not the only religious person who’s at times questioned God’s existence.

Yea sometimes Satan can feel more real than God and Jesus at times.
So many bad things happen, but we need to put trust in that prayer works. Next time you are in tears, when life’s got the better of you, when you just aren’t able to fight your emotions, just put your hands to your heart and have a prayer. It could be a couple of words, it could be dozens. A prayer is a prayer. If it’s true what you say, that prayer will be effective. Trust me! It will!

Last night I just dropped what I was doing and everything to just pray for my friend, and I woke this morning to find that it was really effective the prayer, it worked.

When all strength is lost, when there is nothing else you can do, just pray, because when you’ve done all you can, you need to put it into God’s hands. Just put all your trust in him, and he will certainly show you the effect of your prayer.

Life is a blessing, and if you put your trust in God, he will show you that.

Hearts that are broken and love that’s not true, these go with learning the game.

"Learning the Game" by Buddy Holly is such a great song with such a true message.
We will have our hearts broken more than once, we will have our hearts played with more than once. We likely will be cheated on more than once by another lover.

Yea, cheating and heart playing is not a very very forgiving thing, but at the end of the day, it’s their loss.
We will so many time have our hearts broken, and it will get harder every time. But don’t go guilt the person who dumped you or your friend or whatever. It’s their choice at the end of the day, so what right do you have to guilt someone for what is their choice?

Before you guilt someone, remember, we aren’t perfect, and we will break hearts too. Our lives are trial and error, we may go into a relationship we wish we didn’t go into, or we may just not be able to cope in. You’ll have the other party guilting you, and you will feel really bad about it.

We just simply are not perfect. Our hearts aren’t perfect either and it can take such a long time to understand our hearts.
We must always follow our hearts. Our hearts can and will be deceived, but we must also believe in our hearts, because yes we will fall onto the wrong path, but in time our hearts will find the way.

Remember that we must “Love Thy Neighbour”, and remember what Jesus said on the cross “Forgive them father, for they know not what they do”. You may not be a Christian, you may not even believe in religion, but look at Andy Biersack, he’s an Atheist but he says exactly the same as me about heartbreaks.
It hurts, we can’t deny that, but hard what happens when a relationship ends, but it don’t mean either part is guilty.
We must all treat others with love and respect, and at the end of the day, forgive them and pray that they find a better way soon.
As for me, I pray to god to forgive those that hurt me, and lead them out of the wrong into the right. He will do that eventually because we all are made to be good, we aren’t designed to be evil.

Hearts that are broken and love that’s not true, these go with learning the game.

"Learning the Game" by Buddy Holly is such a great song with such a true message.
We will have our hearts broken more than once, we will have our hearts played with more than once. We likely will be cheated on more than once by another lover.

Yea, cheating and heart playing is not a very very forgiving thing, but at the end of the day, it’s their loss.
We will so many time have our hearts broken, and it will get harder every time. But don’t go guilt the person who dumped you or your friend or whatever. It’s their choice at the end of the day, so what right do you have to guilt someone for what is their choice?

Before you guilt someone, remember, we aren’t perfect, and we will break hearts too. Our lives are trial and error, we may go into a relationship we wish we didn’t go into, or we may just not be able to cope in. You’ll have the other party guilting you, and you will feel really bad about it.

We just simply are not perfect. Our hearts aren’t perfect either and it can take such a long time to understand our hearts.
We must always follow our hearts. Our hearts can and will be deceived, but we must also believe in our hearts, because yes we will fall onto the wrong path, but in time our hearts will find the way.

Remember that we must “Love Thy Neighbour”, and remember what Jesus said on the cross “Forgive them father, for they know not what they do”. You may not be a Christian, you may not even believe in religion, but look at Andy Biersack, he’s an Atheist but he says exactly the same as me about heartbreaks.
It hurts, we can’t deny that, but hard what happens when a relationship ends, but it don’t mean either part is guilty.
We must all treat others with love and respect, and at the end of the day, forgive them and pray that they find a better way soon.
As for me, I pray to god to forgive those that hurt me, and lead them out of the wrong into the right. He will do that eventually because we all are made to be good, we aren’t designed to be evil.

Unless you know what it is like to wake up in the middle of the night scared with the thought of kissing razors
Do not judge someone who self harms.
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Self harm really just isn’t understood.  Some people think we want to self harm, think we want to die, think we have no hope in us.
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Self harm is just like when you get the urge to lust, it’s just like when you get the urge to smoke (I don’t smoke but I understand what it’s like), or to have a drink/snack that you told yourself you aren’t going to have.
What ever it is, it all can be explained the same way as cutting.
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Do you really think we want to do it? Do you really think we mean to do it?
No! It’s the urges. It’s easy enough to say “calm down and find another way to release your pain/anger”, but if you don’t suffer with having to fight  with urges to cut each and every time you are angry/upset, then you just do not realise how tough it can get.
I’m certain a lot of you Lust, and I don’t mean to be personal but have you ever tried to not lust? It’s hard because the urges, it’s a battle. Same goes for battling cutting urges, and when you are also fighting with your emotions, it just gets so much tougher.
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We don’t mean to cut, we don’t want to cut, but then the urges sometimes are just too much to handle.
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If you’re a Muslim or Christian or what, cutting doesn’t mean you don’t have faith, it doesn’t mean you don’t believe, it doesn’t even mean you don’t believe in yourself.
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Yea, self harming is a Sin, just like lusting is, just like drinking is and smoking is and taking drugs is, but remember, Jesus is forgiveness, him and God are loving, they aren’t gonna punish you for being falling down at times.
It’s ok to fall down sometimes, but it’s whether you are trying or not.
You may say that if you resort to self harming, you aren’t trying, but if you think like that, give this a second read, and maybe you’ll realise why I said we fall to self harming.
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Stay strong to anyone that is struggling with any kind of urges, and just be determined to stay trying. Like I always say, it’s ok to cry yourself to sleep, but wake up smiling.
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#jwbjnwolf #mybestpicedits #blithe

Unless you know what it is like to wake up in the middle of the night scared with the thought of kissing razors
Do not judge someone who self harms.
.
Self harm really just isn’t understood. Some people think we want to self harm, think we want to die, think we have no hope in us.
.
Self harm is just like when you get the urge to lust, it’s just like when you get the urge to smoke (I don’t smoke but I understand what it’s like), or to have a drink/snack that you told yourself you aren’t going to have.
What ever it is, it all can be explained the same way as cutting.
.
Do you really think we want to do it? Do you really think we mean to do it?
No! It’s the urges. It’s easy enough to say “calm down and find another way to release your pain/anger”, but if you don’t suffer with having to fight with urges to cut each and every time you are angry/upset, then you just do not realise how tough it can get.
I’m certain a lot of you Lust, and I don’t mean to be personal but have you ever tried to not lust? It’s hard because the urges, it’s a battle. Same goes for battling cutting urges, and when you are also fighting with your emotions, it just gets so much tougher.
.
We don’t mean to cut, we don’t want to cut, but then the urges sometimes are just too much to handle.
.
If you’re a Muslim or Christian or what, cutting doesn’t mean you don’t have faith, it doesn’t mean you don’t believe, it doesn’t even mean you don’t believe in yourself.
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Yea, self harming is a Sin, just like lusting is, just like drinking is and smoking is and taking drugs is, but remember, Jesus is forgiveness, him and God are loving, they aren’t gonna punish you for being falling down at times.
It’s ok to fall down sometimes, but it’s whether you are trying or not.
You may say that if you resort to self harming, you aren’t trying, but if you think like that, give this a second read, and maybe you’ll realise why I said we fall to self harming.
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Stay strong to anyone that is struggling with any kind of urges, and just be determined to stay trying. Like I always say, it’s ok to cry yourself to sleep, but wake up smiling.
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#jwbjnwolf #mybestpicedits #blithe

It’s funny how you belong to a religion whilst you’re bullying!

I see you wearing that Hijab or carrying that bible/Quran in your hand, and the next thing I see is you bullying? What’s up here? I thought you worshipped a God of Love, a God of peace? No? I’m sorry, but in my bible, it says God is peaceful, and full of love, and is against violence. If your bible/Quran says the opposite, then the God you’re worshipping is far different to mine.

My God is Good
My God is Powerful
My God is Loving
My God is Strong
My God is the one and only God and he is the truth.

Your God is Weak
Your God is Evil
Your God is Hate
Your God is Non-Existent
Your God just isn’t a God, because evilness has no foundations in Truth.
If you do not agree this is your God, then you really are blinded in what you are doing.

Bullying is not Love
Bullying is not Strength
Bullying is not Good
You do not like it when it happens to you, so why do you bully others?
Why are you trying to bring me down? If you think what you are trying to do isn’t bullying, you are wrong and I just do not know what your problem is, but one thing is for sure, you certainly are showing your weaknesses.

Bullying is one of the major causes of suicides. How do you know the person you’re bullying isn’t suicidal themselves? Sure you may think that what you are doing is just fun and games and not serious, but you could provoke someone towards suicide, because if they are going through tough times already, it doesn’t fricken take much to cause someone to go ahead and end their life.

So before you even say something to someone that isn’t nice, think BIG!!! Do you REALLY want to be a cause of someone’s suicide?
You may not be close to them, or may not even know them in person, but it doesn’t matter! It will effect you for your whole life I can tell you that!

Don’t bully! And as for trying to bully me, bully me as much as you want to, but don’t expect me to cry, but rather, expect me to put you in your place. Bullies have no place in my life, so don’t think you can get in it!

It’s funny how you belong to a religion whilst you’re bullying!

I see you wearing that Hijab or carrying that bible/Quran in your hand, and the next thing I see is you bullying? What’s up here? I thought you worshipped a God of Love, a God of peace? No? I’m sorry, but in my bible, it says God is peaceful, and full of love, and is against violence. If your bible/Quran says the opposite, then the God you’re worshipping is far different to mine.

My God is Good
My God is Powerful
My God is Loving
My God is Strong
My God is the one and only God and he is the truth.

Your God is Weak
Your God is Evil
Your God is Hate
Your God is Non-Existent
Your God just isn’t a God, because evilness has no foundations in Truth.
If you do not agree this is your God, then you really are blinded in what you are doing.

Bullying is not Love
Bullying is not Strength
Bullying is not Good
You do not like it when it happens to you, so why do you bully others?
Why are you trying to bring me down? If you think what you are trying to do isn’t bullying, you are wrong and I just do not know what your problem is, but one thing is for sure, you certainly are showing your weaknesses.

Bullying is one of the major causes of suicides. How do you know the person you’re bullying isn’t suicidal themselves? Sure you may think that what you are doing is just fun and games and not serious, but you could provoke someone towards suicide, because if they are going through tough times already, it doesn’t fricken take much to cause someone to go ahead and end their life.

So before you even say something to someone that isn’t nice, think BIG!!! Do you REALLY want to be a cause of someone’s suicide?
You may not be close to them, or may not even know them in person, but it doesn’t matter! It will effect you for your whole life I can tell you that!

Don’t bully! And as for trying to bully me, bully me as much as you want to, but don’t expect me to cry, but rather, expect me to put you in your place. Bullies have no place in my life, so don’t think you can get in it!

Don’t use someone’s past against them.

Today, one of my friends, he was talking about retaliating or something like that, I can’t remember, and he asked me something like why not retaliate? And I said “you know I’m against violence, and so are you”, and he said to me “don’t tell me you’re against violence when you remember what you did to your wrist”.
This was in class too! The others didn’t hear what he was talking about, but they were asking and I just kept my mouth shut.

He’s a lovely person, and is why he’s one of my BFF’s, but really? Fair enough, when someone self harms, that’s violence towards yourself, but NEVER EVER use that against someone!
Until you actually have done it yourself or done something like I am doing, putting myself in a place where dozens of people have done or still do it to help, you just never can completely understand about self harm, what goes through the persons mind when they push that blade into themselves. I never went that far to using a blade, because I simply didn’t have one, but that’s besides the point. You just do not ever really understand what self harm is, or what it’s like being suicidal until you actually have been yourself.

I’m not saying you “never” can understand until you been through it, because when I started doing all this, I learnt about self harm and how hard addictions actually are. I never even understood at the start what bulimia, anorexia, self harm addictions, etc really even were, but I understand thoroughly now, not that I been through them, as I haven’t, but because I’ve seen through others accounts and other places just how much of a struggle it is, I’ve learnt so much about it.

Just never never ever use something like self harm against someone. Just because they done that, don’t mean they wanted to, meant to. Just never never do that to someone, using even anything in their past against someone.

That’s their past!!! Self harm, that’s my past and I have faith I’ll never do it again, because I put all my trust in God, and just believe it when him and Jesus say everything will be alright.

Don’t use someone’s past against them.

Today, one of my friends, he was talking about retaliating or something like that, I can’t remember, and he asked me something like why not retaliate? And I said “you know I’m against violence, and so are you”, and he said to me “don’t tell me you’re against violence when you remember what you did to your wrist”.
This was in class too! The others didn’t hear what he was talking about, but they were asking and I just kept my mouth shut.

He’s a lovely person, and is why he’s one of my BFF’s, but really? Fair enough, when someone self harms, that’s violence towards yourself, but NEVER EVER use that against someone!
Until you actually have done it yourself or done something like I am doing, putting myself in a place where dozens of people have done or still do it to help, you just never can completely understand about self harm, what goes through the persons mind when they push that blade into themselves. I never went that far to using a blade, because I simply didn’t have one, but that’s besides the point. You just do not ever really understand what self harm is, or what it’s like being suicidal until you actually have been yourself.

I’m not saying you “never” can understand until you been through it, because when I started doing all this, I learnt about self harm and how hard addictions actually are. I never even understood at the start what bulimia, anorexia, self harm addictions, etc really even were, but I understand thoroughly now, not that I been through them, as I haven’t, but because I’ve seen through others accounts and other places just how much of a struggle it is, I’ve learnt so much about it.

Just never never ever use something like self harm against someone. Just because they done that, don’t mean they wanted to, meant to. Just never never do that to someone, using even anything in their past against someone.

That’s their past!!! Self harm, that’s my past and I have faith I’ll never do it again, because I put all my trust in God, and just believe it when him and Jesus say everything will be alright.

I think this is a good example to show just how powerful the Asus Vivobook S200E is. Ok I’ve got everything set to minimum, textures etc, but GTA IV is certainly a very resource heavy game, so pretty good example to show how much it’s managing to cope. The specs are dual core 1.4ghz i3, 4gb ram and 512mb VRAM. I was actually blown away to see GTA IV working on this. Only cost me £388. Not only is it aluminium, it’s a 11.6 inch screen laptop so it’s very compact and light weight, it’s touch screen too (10 point touch), it doubles up as an android tablet, and it’s powerful enough for games too, and I bet you if I put Mac OS Mavericks on it, people would think it’s a MacBook lol.